the bird

In my chest
leaves bounced daintily
against a sweet breeze
across my skin
was like the light of
dusk reflecting off
the ocean
a round blue glass
filled with cold water
dripped tears
onto the breakfast table
a bird sputters away
from the windowsill
realizing I am near
her coat is the color
of woods

Rain

the trees make
black trimmed buoyant clouds
on the sidewalk
against the orange light
of the lamp post
the rains had fallen
so much this spring
that even the concrete was clean
it smelled
like the inside of a cut
leaf
the nectar
enhanced by the remaining mist
from the downpour

A+B= A+B

There is a linear way to live
and there is another way to live
Some places are easier when you live linearly
Some place are easier when you live non-linearly
I want to try to live non-linearly in a linear place

The Judgement

I thought the world was split in two.
Those that judged
and those that were judged.
Those that judge were the smart good valuable ones
those that were judged were worthless
I looked for the rules of the judges
and studied them
so I could be a judge too
I though I was in the group of being judged
I started to learn the rules of the judgers
and then I saw
that there aren't two groups
or even three
everybody seems
to make their own rules
with their own logic
it was all quite arbitrary
and so I realized
that I don't have to be a judge
and I can be judged
as long as I am doing what I like
it makes no difference to me

Nuance

Sometimes, when I'm looking for big obvious answers and conclusions I miss small hints and clues.

Scurry intimacy

Intimacy is scurry
because is someone says they love you
and then you show them
all of you
you know the
emotional
fallible
you
and they go away
then you really feel
unloved
and rejected
but its great too
because if they still love
you
then you feel really calm
and happy

All that is deserved

If you are good
and you are kind
if you seek
beauty and truth
and care mainly
and mostly
about love
if you come from love
and end in love
then all you deserve is love
people can write
it
people can explain it
but until you realize it yourself
until that moment
when you figure out
that the status quo
of always waiting
of always getting half
of what you give
is not okay
until that moment
you won't know
that you can have
much more